I have been spending most of my time going to Drs and specialists, researching, and making decisions about my health and my body! What have y’all been to???
When we do not fully heal the trauma to our soul, it will manifest as disease in our physical body. This has been proven scientifically. And I did not have time to focus on healing or grieving, and my body has been saying to me,”it is time to rest and heal and deal with your shit!” , and move forward.
We don’t always want to move forward from the things that hurt, or the gaps that left to be filled somehow. Even when we know fully that, that is what we must do. It is never the same for everyone, we are all unique and process our reality in our unique ways.
I know how difficult this has been for me, so many things happening at the same time, dealing with so much, feeling lost, overwhelmed, sad, and tired. Just flat out tired. Tired of all the chaos, chores, tasks, learning how to do the stuff I never thought I would need to know. And maintaining the relationships in my life, this has been difficult as well. You always try to be a good friend, sister, partner, or whatever it is, but it is not always so simple.
Life is not black and white! Nope! The grey areas sneak in and knock you off your axis!! And there are those in your orbit that only see the black or white. Make sure you stay true to your higher self !! Stay your course! Make your life the life you want! Heal all areas in a way that works for you!!
Love and Light